Aggravation

     It's so hard to just find the time to write something that you want to write and just enjoy it. Either you criticize your own work or someone else is doing that for you and it is the most annoying aspect of writing, but a necessary one. I don't even know why I am talking about this, but I guess ideation plays a large role in writing, ti really does and I love that. I think that it is a really abstract way to look at it, instead of entitling the section Writing its about ideation and I guess I am willing to explore where that will lead me later on in my own writing process, even if I don't know exactly just yet. I know that inversion was a good lesson to learn for later to learn.
     Now about the Bayeux Tapestry. As I dived into it in class, I tried to get into the idea of battling the good and evil of oneself. And I was really stumped at first about what I was going to draw. I really didn't know what I would be drawing at first so I just went up there and started to draw and then an idea hit me to do the Temptation of lust vs. love. I know the idea is kind of cliché  but it really was the idea that was on my mind at the time and I thought that it was good to write about for me at the time.
     I'm in a long distance relationship and it is so complicated and there are so many problems and issues to deal with that I don't know how I will overcome them sometimes, but I want to work it out so much and I hope it will, and it really felt liberating to be able to draw my own inner battle with that, not that I would talk about that in class...I just want to figure it out. But life isn't always black and white. I truly believe every situation is shades of black and white, often times grey. It is never exactly simple, no matter how bad you want it to be. It isn't and I know that may come a annoying for a lot of people. I even find it aggravating, but at the same time it is what makes writing so fun for me. I love discovering new characters as I write and trying to figure out how they will solve the problem/conflict that arises in the story, which often times plays a role in my own life. I love it and it is what I want to do and I just wish sometimes that I could just throw my words down and type like I do with these blogs. I don't even think when I type, I just do it and it either works or it doesn't and I love it. 
     So I don't know if I will be an amazing writer any time soon, but I do know that it will be a part of my life and that I will not stop writing no matter what happens, negative criticism or not. This is what I love and this is what I plan on doing for the rest of my life. Live and Let Love.